I stopped crying!

I bid my lips to stop all the tears from gushing out. It was torture. And good news, you guys. I'm on page 210 and its only day two reading Where Rainbows End. I'm becoming a fast reader. Hah! But it was really a page-turner cause it keeps you in suspends of what's happening next. Haaa!

"...By the way, Rosie, you were my best woman that day and you still are my best friend.Always will be. Just to let you no..."

Gosh, isn't it sweet, if your best friend were to say to you in a letter just because you gave a speech on his wedding day? It's so freakin' gorgeous!

Hmm, I never had one of those really long-lasting friends. I grew up using to meeting new faces and still is! My best guy friends are like hmmm, David L, David P, Ryan, Keiff and Mikey. I mean I talk to them most compared to other guys. But I don't share those growing up time with them. Let's see. Samuel and Zechary? I totally grew up with them, play tag and watch them grow fatter and fatter by the year but we're not THAT close.

I still think I spend most of my childhood time with my cousin, Tobii. He's a pest but yeah, I remember he wanted to be a 'big boy' and not bath with us. ( me and Tirzah) And he would use to laugh and try to open our doors when we bath and we would scream at him when he manages to pry open the door. I would come back from school and play with him our Olympics. The bus would always drop me off at his house to I spend alot of time with him. You get me right? We would play on his Play Station2 and I would always beat him in those fighting game and he would beat me in those killing games of his. During those rainy day, those long-winged bugs would infest his big big home and we would use what he calls the 'slapper' to kill those bugs by jumping off the little staircase and by swinging it really fast. And those time, he would tease my by saying I had a boyfriend and he would go crazy about it. And those time, I would laughing till I cry and cry, hearing him speak chinese and singing this chinese love song. I would teach him to pronounce it properly but he still can't get it right. And those time, he would attack me with his really disgusting and black 'smelly bomb', as he use to call it. And those times when we use to have sleepovers and I would sleep with him on the same bed and not feel weird about it. And those times, when he would show off his skills on the dancing mat and I would just laugh. And those really crazy crazy time when we use to play hide and seek in his mansion house. I would never find him cause he knows those really nice place to hide. Like literally on the roof. He would jump out and scare the heck out of me when I was around the corner and play badminton with him and the maid and always win. And yes, those time on the 'airplane' but its actually the swing.

I miss you, Tobs! You grew so much over the years in Australia! With the voice breaking and the beard-shaving and the six-feet height. I miss you so much! Come back soon and we will start the fight all over again, k? I really miss youuuuuuu!

I'm really getting emotional here. Will be back tomorrow cause Mom will not be home.

BYE!

I cried my eyeballs out...

Hey people. And yes, I cried. I'm not that depressing, mind you. I read this book my darling dear Sissy Jade Ng borrowed me. I cried in many many part in the book. Like those really sweet ones, when Alex and Rosie would play and they way the talk to each other just reminds me of those times when I would talk to people like that. And when she got pregnant and Alex became so worried because she wasn't coming over to Boston. And gosh, was he the sweetest guy ever. I cried when they were much much younger. They were so adorable! I wish this storyw as real. Is it? It's by Cecilia Ahern. Where rainbows end. You guys have to get your hands on that book. Super nice book.

Let me go random for awhile, cause I wasn't random for a long time. =D

I love my hair when I wake up from a sleep. Cause it's all soft and nice. I didn't knew it was like that. So this is you fun fact for the day.

Don't cry too much or your head will start throbbing and you'll just have to sleep-in the whole day.

If got nothing in my head right now, but I'll update you people on my Friday trip.

It was really weird and all cause we don't do this normally in the family but we actually went down to KLCC on a FRIDAY! Yes, a FRIDAY!

Yeah, it was a normal morning. Actually, Ma wanted to go for this sale thingy. It was closed. Wanted to go to Ikea at first. I was this close to enter OU. Dad said it was 'boring' there. He didn't want to go.

He wanted to go check out the property stuff in KLCC so we had to go there. By train. It wasn't that bad. Except for the fact we had to walk and walk and walk. But it was good exercise. I'm growing sideways.

I had opportunity to take some shots. Yay. I got some really nice ones. Still thinks a DSLR conquers all. No matter how bad your angle is or how ugly the lighting is, a digital SLR still makes it look nice. Lucky DSLR people.

Went there, Dad and Ma went to meddle with their things and I walk around the place. Milcah followed me and it was headache taking care oof her. Jeez.

My mission was to try all possible skinnies KLCC has to offer. So my first stop was Topshop. Their skinnies are so nice, but the price is a pocket burner, in fact all the pants I see in KLCC is a pocket-burner. D:

I grabbed the smallest sized skinny and I saw this really really really nice pants.

My favorite pic of all time. Ok, whatever. You see Briana's pants? It's so nice! I saw something like that, but not exactly like that. Oh, you get the picture, don't you? If you don't get, too bad for you! =D

This was what I saw.

Right, Ryan? Isn't this nice! The price will fry your senses.

And the skinny.



I love it.

The skinnies from GAP. I like the jacket toooo!



The skinnies. It was more expensive compared to Topshop. Gah!

My favorite of all. I was in Zara.

And then I went all over the place, I went to Oreef. They've got a few companies in that place like Roxy and some other one I forgot. I tried this nice I don't-know-what-you-call-it. I didn't take any photo of it but it was nice. They had no more size zero of the skinny it wanted to try. So yeah. I can't go in most of the stores cause it was for big people. Ok, fine. I looked like a kid so I can't go in. Sheesh! Age-ist! I saw this really cheap and nice shirt in Nike. But Dad wasn't with me. And Milcah was making so much noise. I want a new trainer. I don't think I will ever get one.

Hang around in Canon store. Played around with their Canon 500D. The others was only for display. I couldn't turn it on. And I saw this really good-looking caucasian guy across me while I was fiddling with the Canon 50D and he was snapping around with the 500D. Wanted to go like "Hi, do you like this model? I really like this model? And bla bla bla..." But I didn't have the guts too. I can't handle the good-lookingness of that dude, I left and went into Machines. The authorized Apple store. I was hanging there while waited for Ma and Dad to come.

Walked around with them. Got some shots.

Taadaa! I love the editting.


Headed over to Kinokuniya. Got my Discovery mag. Wanted to buy that novel, but it was dead expensive. Left the place and headed to Pasar Seni to eat.

All I can remember is that we walked and walked and walked. I don't have the slightest idea where we were and where we were walking to and when we were stopping. All I knew I was walking. It was tiring but it was a nice excersise. Found this store beside the road and ate there cause that was the only store open at that time. It was late and it was still one busy city, except there was no cars. There was bugs and rats everywhere. Cockroaches were all over. That city was infested with all sorts of creepy crawlers. Super gross.

The food was awesome even though it was just chicken rice.

Those typical traditional store by the road. The dude was staring at me when I was taking this pic but it's still very natural right? =D

Walked over to the LRT station to get the train back home. That stop was in Masjik Jamek (is that how you spell that, whatever!)



I'm REALLY into subways! But this wasn't a subway though. Heh.


The train came. It was again, a really long ride home. I was still snapping away. Ma, Dad and Milcah sat. I was standing.


The nicest shot EVER! Yay.

Dad got to sit ext to the kind-looking young caucasian guy. And all of a sudden they started talking. It was weird and all. Dad told me he was a mix chinese and American. He was like looking for some mortgage planner people and the job that Daddy work as. It was totally awkward.

We went to the store near Bee Bee's house (we took the train near school). And yeah.

=)

Bye.................. I've got nothing in my head.

Come!

I wish next year would come quick! Gahhh! Ish-ie!

I've always love subways and trains. I love those places since who-knows-when. So I'm gonna blog about them! Yay!

Subway in New York.

Homeless in Beijing.

If I'm not wrong this is in London?



Isn't this obvious enough? I love this alot!


In Munich.

Hmm..Will there be subways in Washington DC? I wonder...Hmmmm..

And this is my masterpiece. One of the best I've ever got. From camp.

And this is also my nicest..I think. All thanks to photoshop.

Tadaa! It's my dear Mikey! He is ssoo cute! I miss you too, Mikey! I think the editting suck. I think it kinda got jammed up. But still....And LOOK! The pimples are all gone! Shh! Photoshopped your face too. So nice eh?

I've seen tons of nice ones but I couldn't get it on my comp!! Ish-ie..

Bye society! I've got tons of photos to edit. Ta!

I love the Lilo and Stitch ad on Disney Channel!

"You're touching me!"
"I'm not touching you!"
"YOU'RE TOUCHING ME!!"
"I'm not touching youuu!!"

New season of Merlin is up. Yay-er. The show reminds me..........

June 2010!! Please come!

...How can I move on
when I'm still in love with you...

Poof!

I've got nothing currently. I just know that someone is stalking me. And its not JT. Someone that hurt me countless times stalkes me. So wadda ya want, huh? Ish! I'm so pissed!

I made mash potato today. It rocks. It took me so long to like make the potato cook. And yes, it's my first time doing it. So bravo!

Bye! I'm quite high except for the fact that someone stalkes me. You know why, cause I danced to Kesha's just now!

I miss school!

I miss you , Kor.

Teeeeeee!

Noob!

I so feel like crying right now. I'll blog about events some other time later. I have so much things to cry about. I didn't realize I fell into the same trap again. And no one help me snap out of it. I'm at the lowest. And something/someone smashed up something so fragile that takes me all that hope and faith to paste it back together. I know I was hanging onto false hope. None of those things ever ever existed. Like c'mon. Seriously. I was acting like such a retard. I think that's why Daddy in heaven told me not to or I'll definately hurt myself again. And I understand why. I feel like crap keeping those pictures and keep looking at it, in wishing it will happen. I was stupid ok? I think its all gone. I know I have been like saying this to the people around me but it never happened but please, just help me out. Remind me of 'that' promise and you'll make all that difference in my life.
And to that person somewhere out there, grow up! You're so childish to the extand you hurt me sometimes.


大哥, I miss you! I wish we were still talking. When are you coming back? I'm still holding onto hope that one day, you'll come back to God. I have faith in you. But when? I want you to continue to grow in the Lord like those times. You were a worshipper, you were more than a conquerer, you were that strong warrior I know, and you were that 大哥 I always look up to. But where is that person now? I avoided you because I was scared to be talking to someone totally different. I just can't accept you being like that, because I've been missing you. I want you to know that, I love you so much that I pray for you. I miss those times when you use to drive me to McD's for dinner and pay for my meal and being my chauffer and doing all those small stuff for my that sometimes I take it for granted. Do you still remember, when I was still that small 13 year old girl. Know's nothing about people. I went out for dinner with the YF people and I was the smallest there. When they started bullying me, you were the ONLY one there to defend me? Do you still remember? I still keep that memory dearly because we you always my 大哥 when I needed one. From then on, I had a totally different way of looking at you. I admire you for that. I love you more. Why don't you change? You have all that potential in you and you just let it to waste. Daddy in heaven will be please if you use those potential he had given you for His glory. But why? But you know what? No matter what happens, I know you will always be my 大哥 and no one can take that away from me. I love you no matter what happens. I will be praying for you. I still love you and I miss you!

I wish you can read this.


According to you
I'm stupid,
I'm useless,
I can't do anything right.
According to you
I'm difficult,
Hard to please,
Forever changing my mind.
I'm a mess in a dress,
Can't show up on time,
Even if it would save my life.
According to you. According to you.

But according to him
I'm beautiful,
Incredible,
He can't get me out of his head.
According to him
I'm funny,
Irresistible,
Everything he ever wanted.
Everything is opposite,
I don't feel like stopping it,
So baby tell me what I got to lose.
He's into me for everything I'm not,
According to you.

According to you
I'm boring,
I'm moody,
You can't take me any place.
According to you
I suck at telling jokes cause I always give it away.
I'm the girl with the worst attention span;
You're the boy who puts up with it.
According to you. According to you.

But according to him
I'm beautiful,
Incredible,
He can't get me out of his head.
According to him
I'm funny,
Irresistible,
Everything he ever wanted.
Everything is opposite,
I don't feel like stopping it,
So baby tell me what I got to lose.
He's into me for everything I'm not,
According to you.

I need to feel appreciated,
Like I'm not hated. oh no
Why can't you see me through his eyes?
It's too bad you're making me dizz-ay

Orianthi is like Taylor, she knows how I feel. Throughout all the mistakes I've made, my King Daddy loves me for who I am. Not what according to you!


=)




See what I mean? Heh. Super cool. Wish I could so something like that. Hmm. Maybe I should. You know who I'm writing about right? XD

BellyButtoned...

Hey people! So how's it going? I've disappeared for quite sometime. This week have been good.

Monday, I was totally missing someone who didn't come to school. Was helping out with the props for the whole day, in the library. And then hide in the science lab with Nat and Ry to talk about stuff that happen on Movie Night.

Tuesday, had Ms Cath's dimsum. Sooooo nice. It was kinda like my first time eating those stuff you know. Gosh. I'm such a student. Eating in class and all.

Wednesday, which was today, was really stressful. Me and Bee. We were about to just crack our head open. These people are really really confusing people. Those mics are one confusing department to handle. And gosh, this stage crew thing just gave me some stress pimples. Gosh.

IT'S AWARDS NIGHT TOMORROW!! Amanda ain't coming. Like three years, in a row. I miss you babe! Gonna have so much fun tomorrow with the girlies. Going to Bee's house. And then to some hairdressing shop. Eh heh!

I'm learning to play a new song now. In your face Tet! But still I love you loads and loads, Tetsuo Takahara!! You still don't know my full name yet. Hah!

Getting a train to Bee's house.

So much drama going on tomorrow. Should I? Hmmm. I was like preparing for it for the last two months? But I tore it away. It was in a paper. Yeah. Guess it still remains a huge mystery eh?

Kuz. Toodello!

...I'd Like To make Myself Believe That Planet earth Turns Slowly
It's Hard To Say That I'd Rather Stay Awake When I'm Asleep
Cause Everything Is Never As It Seems...

two...

I still find this highly amusing as I was thinking about random stuff when I was bathing just now. It's my first ever conversation with Ms SarahTi. It all started when I was sitting on the main door stairway a.k.a near the guardhouse. I was new that time. So I didn't know anyone. It goes something like this...

Waiting quietly on the stairway, string into space...
Sarah: *Turns her head to me* I'm happy today! Ask me why.
Me: *why on earth is she talking to me, I don't even know her* Why?
Sarah: Cause it's my birthday! And I'm having cuppycakes!
Me: Oh, ok. Happy Brithday!
Sarah: Thank you! *turns head back*

so yesterday was Friday. Nicest day of the week. Came to school with my surfer's pants cause dad kills if he were to find out I'm wearing skinnies with slippers. I still don't get the whole idea why would he get mad if I were to wear those. Changed into my skinnies when I reached school. Went to go check on my ALT scores. 94%. Not bad eh? Went to help Neilson to paint the banner for the kunk sale. Painted the stars for Movie Night later, glitter it, poke holes into it and tied up the fishing wire into it. And then help design the banner. We had so much fun spray painting it, and then we splatter paint on it. It was the best. And then outline it and we have to do the finshing touches like make the 'junk' stick on better.

Went straight up for music prac. It wasn't bad. I didn't even get to eat lunch. Had to eat it in the mother's room with Justine. We were talking about my younger sister while eating and we were totally laughing hard. I love you, Hubby!!

Chapel was nice. Mr Kevin' sharing was nice. Short and sweet. After that Jon called for meeting after chapel. He shared about his dream. And I was in there. I wonder what I was doing in the Youth Hall. Hhmmm. Talking? Duh!

Me and Vicks went back with Kels. Watched like half of Monster Vs. Alien and Spongebob and Kunfu Panda. Took bath and freshen up. Was laughing so hard with Vicks when Quels was in the bathroom. *girl girl girl GIRL GIRL GIRL*

Help Kels sugar icing her brownies for later. Ate some of them. Was the best stuff ever. Got to school. Running around with Vicks and Quels. Was dancing to Tik Tok behind the doors that lead to the Youth Hall to release all the anger from the 'thing'. Camwhore behind the overhead projector. People flooded in. There's Xbox 360 for the guys to play. Food. Drinks. Had my hand on the Black Baby a.k.a Wee Yen's DSLR. I was photographing the night. Ian, Nat, Mike, and Quels got a taste of it. The crowd was encouraging. The Junk Store was really earning.

Movie was not bad. It's about ice hockey. It's called Miracle. Went back just abit earlier cause Vickie's parents came abit early than expected. Have to finish the movie on Youtube. Laughed like crap in her car. Read it on Vickie's blog. Ransacked her whole room. I saw her dress for Awards Night and it was not bad. It's green! Hello! Not blue! Dad came and crashed.

Today was children's day in kid's church. Went there late, so didn't help the registration. Helped Yunny with her store and went over to Josiah's cause he needed help. I felt like sleeping the whole time cause it was cold and I was tired. Had tons of my favorite cream puffs right after that and unlimited popcorns with the actual machine. It was super cool. Aunty Elsie had one of those.

Ice cream made it all jelak. And Headed home.

And and and..HAPPY BIRTHDAY, HAZEY!!!! I LOVE YOU! Another older yet wiser. Have fun growing up!



Super sweet. I love Bom!

Ta. I hate myself now.

Continued...

hey I'm back from yesterday's post. Mom was totally blowing so I had to close. So where was I? Oh yeah, Sesame Street.


And this is my favorite. I even name my guitar Elmo. I love him so much! =D



Don't you just love them?

School was nice today. I didn't do work except for the ALT I did. Was pretty easy. Was stupid of me for stressing out before the test cause Ryan said it was easy and I did not believe him. Heh.

Went to help Hazel with the backdrop for Awards Nights. I SEWED! Played with the foamcutter and it was a blast. Painted the stars for tomorrow's Movie Night. Are you coming? You have to! Cause I'm photographing the whole thing! Yay!

Choir was tiring. Sang all the songs for like 3 whole freakin times. Now I just hate those songs. Laughed with Vickie ssoo muched. I was doing the Donald Duck voice and it sounded so stupid. Did stay for music practise. I'm so sorry, Ms Cath!!!!!

Have to go. Mom kills. See ya guys tomorrow. Come k. Ta!

...I would tell you how much I've missed you
since you've been away...