Random thoughts.

Hi. I'm back, not for long. I'm here to keep this thing alive. So, A LOT of things happened. I can't recall everything but recently, I'm done with school. DONE WITH SCHOOL. I thank God for being with me through every step of the way. I know without Him I think I won't be done till next year. I can still remember telling myself this is not gonna end, like it's gonna go on forever and ever when I first came in few years ago in Klang. Well, that's because I was 15 when I came in and I started off at Grade 5 and 6. Now I'm done. So I'm content. Even though I was expecting more from myself. And I really miss school. Those of you who know me, knows that I wanna get out of school as soon as possible. But now I'm out, I miss it. Sucks for me.

And just a few hours ago I finally received my call from Starbucks. My first interview is at 5.30pm tomorrow. Finally. I've been waiting for their calls forever. I'm really excited at the same time scared of what is gonna be ask. I really really want the job. Uh, I'm offered a job in McD's. Well, that's because Dad forced me to sign up for it. It was a backup plan just in case Starbucks didn't want me. I hope and pray that I get the job. I. Need. Money. So if you guys are around the corner in Klang or coming to Klang, you guys can come drop by Jusco Bukit Raja and come visit me ok. That's of course if I get that job.

I recently watched Smurf with Mr. Nicholas and Ms. Cath. It wasn't as bad as what I was expecting.

I need to go out with so many people

I need to eat Bak Kut Teh. I'm so close yet so far.

You know, I have this crazy plan of saving up a portion of my money to go to America for a short while, maybe for a vacation in Maryland, where my aunt lives. Hmmmmm...

Ryan's getting me to write my list of what I wanna do after school. I don't know, really. Get me lamps. I laike lamps.

I pray that you're not a jerk, like how all your friends are. It hard for me to think of you as a douchebag.

I really really wanna get that job. I get employee's discount. And it's crazy.

Oh yeah, have I forgotten? Abby's party was a blast. :) Except the fact that I had to wear a stinkin' dress. Oh oh! I got to talk to Jon Teh. He called from Colorado. I miss you buddyyyyyyyy.

Abby, I wanna watch a movie. D: We go with buffalo Elena k?

I miss you Pumpkin Pie.

I wish it would rain more.

Ok. See yall again. Bai.

I hope I get that job.


I want that job.

Crib.

So I'm back again, after two months. I miss this place. It allows me to vent.

A LOT of things happened. Not gonna talk about them all.

My first day of the holidays started off with cleaning the entire house. Top to bottom. McDonald's killed me with their service line. I had dinner at 1.30 in the morning and it isn't even McDonald's. Yeah, I'm here staying to up to let my food go down a bit before I hit the sack.

You know, sometimes, I wish, specific people that I thought were close to me won't treat me like that. 

I miss Ryan and Nelson and Jamie and Jill. I'm sometimes very lonely. :(

Everyone starting to leave. Tim and Hazel. Last last week was Hazel's last day. Last week was Tim's. I wanna leave too.

Math is a drag.

Hazel's farewell on Monday. And after that I have to go check out ELS. And on Thursday I have to go back to school to do some work and going out with Ryan. Been such a long time.

I haven't even touch my report and half way through the field trip presentation.

When would you figure out that I'm sick of this hide-and-seek game? 

I'm officially done with Bible. I have 4 more subjects to go. Trying to finish History in the holidays. Can't wait till I hit the Obama book.

Skyped with Lydia. It was good. :)

Happy Memorial's Day!

All for love.

 

Abby! When will be our bubble party?

I hate my work. Especially 11th grade Bible. It's just pathetic. They think we have all the space in our head to remember everything.

I want a ukelele and I gotta go shopping for shades. Yes, I do.

Guitar tutorial's should be made easier. Ngiek!

Amanda, I hate you for taking such a long time to come back. I miss my phone budday!

Field trip is here. Yay. -.- It's such a drag.

I'm waiting for the day you'll be present. *eyebrow twitches*

I'm still waiting for you to find out the price for my scratchboard. You work in the store and you're taking such a long time. Ish you.

Frawer!

To my best friend.

 You'll be in my heart.

Dear Ryan. Yes, you! I'm addressing it to you! It's my turn to write you a note.

Ok, I gotta fess up that I was mad. I was really really mad at you that Tuesday. I was in the computer lab doing my work, when Jamie ran in telling me that it will be your first day there. I was surprise cause you said you were going there just to do your placement test and I was gonna see you the nest day. I was flabbergasted. I didn't know what to say, so shocked that it slowly slipped in anger. You didn't text me, you didn't even call me. And I was waiting for your call or even a message for the whole time. Nothing came. I was even madder. I swear I was gonna blow my top off. I don't blame you for it, I know things like this just happen. But I thought I was gonna be the first one to know. You texted Jamie you didn't even drop me a message. We're best friends. Aren't I suppose to be the first one to get the news. I know, I know it's something small, no need to get worked up on . But it really meant something to me, hello, I was gonna lose my best friend and I don't even know about it, you know what I'm saying? Oh don't get me wrong, I've got nothing against Jamie and I love her so very dearly. So, I decided to gave you a cold shoulder. Since you didn't bother about me, I didn't wanna bother you either. That time of silence also gave me sometime to think things out. You're my best friend, and I'm yours. At least I think.You should know me well enough to know how I felt. I didn't wanna reply your text cause I know if I reply you, Imma bomb you and it will be uncorrectable, I was afraid I was gonna ruin everything and I don't wanna lose us. So I remain silent even though I was dying a slow death inside of me, so wanting to talk to you and ask you what happen and how was your day. Night came and guess what, I finally cracked. I just couldn't take it anymore. I cried. I cried my guts out. I wasn't mad anymore. I know I couldn't stand being mad at you any longer. I felt really lonely and I was worried. So I just burst out in tears. I realize I was actually gonna lose a close friend and a brother. I never grew up with a best friend. My friends just come and go and I thought we were gonna be best friends till we get really old. I was preparing for your farewell in May, I totally didn't not expect this at all. It was hard. Who is gonna go out with me for lunch? Who is gonna lend me their iPod to watch Glee? Whose food am I gonna heat up with mine for lunch? Who am I gonna play volleyball with? Who is gonna update me about Hope? Who am I gonna make up scientific names for other people with? Who's house am I gonna go to after any vents? Who's gonna talk about Glee with me? Who is gonna download Whale Wars for me? Whose post-it notes am I gonna borrow? Who is gonna send me mysterious parcels to me doorstep? Who is gonna give me gifts that meant the world to me even though it was awkward? Who is gonna complain to be about there brothers? Who is gonna teach me LA? Who is gonna stalk Mr. X with me? Who is gonna show me cartoon fruits? Who is gonna tell me about your adventures in Johor? Who is gonna buy me glow sticks? Who am I gonna pass notes to? Who am I gonna text every night about our day in school? I know there is still Facebook and outings and etc. But its never gonna be the same again. You know I love you so dearly. You were there for me when I needed you. You were there to hear me crap about how people's face piss me off. I would want you to do your best in everything cause you're my best friend. So I'm sorry for what I did. I didn't mean to leave you alone when you needed me. I don't want it to become like David and me so I'm telling you this. So I send you all me love as you move into something new. New studies, new teachers, some new friends and a whole new environment . Go make new friends, new best friends. So you can tell them about our stories and how awesome we were. And down the road the next 5 years, when we go out, and if things get awkward between us (which never happens normally), I want you to know that I don't talk to you doesn't mean I hate you or got fed up with you or anything, like what I said, things will never be the same again, but you would know that I still love you so much and does reminisce both good and bad times we had. You and I both know that it's close to impossible to keep up with a friendship when the other person is not there to go through it with you.And yes, don't even think of forgetting what my dream wedding is. You better keep the promise of becoming my planner. Wish you all the best. Ahh, tip of the day: Don't let your guard down. I would come visit when I can drive. Don't know when but yeah, I will do that. I'll bring Nelson and our walking ATM machine along. Have a good time there and don't let us down! Oh yeah, if you need anyone to talk to, you know where to get me. Ring me up and I'll always be on the other end of the phone lending a ear. God bless you may He shower His blessings upon you.

PS: Today, in the afternoon in school, I wasn't giving you a cold shoulder. My eyes was so dry and tired from all the crying yesterday night. I had to constantly put up my hood to distract people away from my eyes cause it was swelling so much. It was much better in school but I woke up to literally ping pong eyes. And I didn't wanna strike up too much conversation. I might just die. Remember, I love you! <3

And to all the people that isn't named after Ryan Tan. It's something from my heart. Oh yeah, I could be cheesy at times. 

Have a great day! :)

Just a little...

Being strong doesn't make you a man.

 HELLO THERE! Haha. I'm going all Charlie.

I haven't been here for the longest time. Have been setting my priorities right. So I'm cutting down on my internet time a lot cause I wanna get outta hellhole as soon as possible.

School as been same-old same-old. Highlight of the week was when new instruments came in. The one that made me really really happy was NEW hi-hat came in! I was the second one to jam on it. Felt good. Still not perfect but sounds wayy better. A new bass and a new bass amp came in. New electric guitar and new electric guitar amp came in too. And yes, I comes with cables!  Very happy about that. Now we have 3 and a half working cables. The half one only works on my guitar. I doesn't work on the school guitar. So fail still.

Launched the first ISCF of the year yesterday. People came in. Was playing with my awesome pawsome worship team. My guitar sounded very very hot.  One thing I learned : God only helps the people that wants to be helped. :)

I wanna blow some bubbles with some awesome people! Who's up?

My phones ENTER button crashed. Looked up at some website and the keypad spare part is 150 bucks!!!! Gosh. Stupid phone.

Started searching up colleges already. Not fun at all. Some sites just PISS ME OFF! They're so hard to use. Everything is all over the place. Ish.

Do you know that, you just need cash to enter into Berklee College of Music? No SATs required. GPA in high school doesn't need to be very high. Everthing just has to be a C and above. Owh Mai Gorsh! I mean if if you got the scholarship is a bonus. Just need skills, that's all.

I'm now gonna download my Photoshop CS5 now.

See ya the next time. When I have time, I mean.

:D